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[Jul. 24th, 2005|06:19 pm] |
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) bennymiller and i are in a fight. we're breaking up.
please become friends with my new significant other, emilyne.
that means friend me, dorks! |
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[Jul. 21st, 2005|09:45 am] |
it's interesting to recognize who you're willing to make sacrifices for, and who you're not.
also, i woke up in the middle of the night cos i heard someone opening and closing the front door. it took me about ten minutes to realize that it was probably just ian going out for a smoke. i should really get around to locking the doors at night!! |
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[Jul. 17th, 2005|05:23 pm] |
have finally returned from DC, two days late mind. but this was okay - bob had to run off to scotalnd on wednesday, so my delay meant a couple days to hang out just me and mom. which i know probably sounds lame, but i think my mom's a cool old fogey, and i miss her already! so i bore back a new crop of h&m and j.crew goodies and a pile of my mom's old hippie cook books. she went out and bought new copies of them all, which i think sort of destroyed the nostalgic element of your mom still using the same cookbooks that she fed you from as a child.
oh, i am missing everyone i cannot have right now! |
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[Jul. 7th, 2005|08:43 pm] |
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as if spending my whole afternoon on planes wasn't nervewracking enough, i have now arrived in a city whose only practical method of transportation happens to be a metro!! this is not going to be the relaxing i'd anticipated - now do i not only have to worry about falling out of the sky, but about being blown out of the ground! isn't there a happy medium? ah, yes - fredericton. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2005|10:50 pm] |
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emily is currently mushing bingo dabbers into my head while i'm trying to type on the computer. it's like babysitting a three year old with ADD. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2005|08:58 pm] |
| [ | do you hear |
| | home for a rest- spirit of the west | ] |
argh, i am being harassed by two very rambunctious and affectionate dogs and emily is doing nothing about it. she's not doing anything at all....
my day spent immobilized on the sofa crying over the end of the butterfly effect was a small price to pay for a couple of fabulous nights. tuesday found us at the beach, an outing whose sublimeness (submlimity?) was marred only by the unsettling fact that you can see the dam from the beach. we won both our disk games and then retired to the grad house and i ran into tim. tim, who i haven't seen in a year. tim, who used to have a crush on me and told me that i was so full of life and that he couldn't keep pace with my thoughts and liked me because we would sit around and talk about sailing and snowboarding and he'd never met someone like me. it was odd. we hung out until carrie announced she was taking him home. isn't it funny how people unexpectedly reappear, only to disappear all over again (he doesn't live here), little blips on your lifeline. i went swimming with a bunch of girls i met in the park at three in the morning and we got arrested. oops.
last night i carried on my mission of having a country summer by attending the pioneer pub in oromocto. for those not in the know, this is when they open the arena up with a live band and lots of liquor and the whole town comes out to get ridrunkulous and, uh, ridance-ulous...anyway, it was a small-town good time, lots of wholesome east coast music and my companions avoiding all the people they haven't seen since high school. which was odd, because it's been so long since i've seen anyone i went to school with outside of my close friends, i can't think of anyone i would go out of my way to avoid. anyway, jason got loud and then melancholy, and katalin and i lost ivan and emily, but it all ended wonderfully with toast and staying up until four with oromocto girls. i think i would like to make katalin my friend.
yesterday raised an interesting argument regarding people who stay at home/ in their hometowns after highschool. thoughts?
today, all i want to listen to is spirit of the west and the hip. see me, being canadian.
also, everyone stop fighting!!! please....mommy, daddy, i hate when you fight.
drew remembered to buy me chocolate. many brownie points. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2005|01:32 pm] |
sometimes carrie and i remind me so much of a couple, it's scary. last night, we drank a bottle of wine, got into a stupid fight becaue neither of us could make a decision, and i walked home without her in high dudgeon (sp?). we're ridiculous.
at first i was stuck on the idea that this weather is balls, but i've started getting up when it's still cool and lovely out and then spending the rest of the day either hiding at work or reading, and coming back out in the twilight, when the world is sane again. evenings here feel like cottage-country after a hot day - like a big, cool sigh.
i miss my roomies when they go home for a few days. i miss sprawling around the apartment with kiersten, and the sound of ian's guitar in the evening. the other night when they were both gone, i slept on the living room sofa, just because it seemed less lonely. how do people ever live alone??? |
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[Jun. 16th, 2005|02:26 pm] |
real life is kind of balls right now, so...
four tv shows you liked when you were a little kid]
1. road to avonlea
2. samurai pizza cats
3. counterstrike
4. M*A*S*H
[four places to go in your area]
1. the river green
2. the new german bakery
3. the lighthouse
4. the clubhouse
[four things to do when you're bored]
1. file my nails
2. play guitar
3. play dress-up
4. go for long walks that end in coffee/ice cream
[four things that never fail to cheer you up]
1. carrie and lesley
2. driving
3. stargazing
4. buying expensive food
[four things you can't live without]
1. rainy days
2. i will also have to say sunscreen
3. bare legs
4. wine
[about ten years ago *list three things*]
1. me and julia used to try to beat up ted whelpdale
2. i spent most of my time in the vice-principals office
3. i wanted to be an fbi agent
[about four years ago *list three things*]
1. all my friends started leaving school
2. i didn't know the capital of new brunswick
3. my brother was moving out
[about one year ago *list three things*]
1. i seriously didn't think i would be coming back to new brunswick
2. mel noel and i were living together but weren't really friends
3. i bought my first pair of cons
[three things about today...]
1. it's freaking raining again
2. it took me three hours to get out of the house
3. i think i have two crushes at the same time right now
[seven things you love]
1. learning to drive
2. my roomies
3. patios
4. grocery shopping
5. DC
6. walking
7. disk
[seven things you dislike]
1. feeling blank
2. nightmares about scary new brunwick murderers
3. jason scaring the crap out of me
4. being home alone
5. sore feet
6. mosquito bites
7. being far from people when you need them
[seven things on your desk]
1. sense and sensibility book-on-tape
2. a stack of guitar tabs
3. bowl of beer bottle caps
4. half a bottle of champagne
5. notebook
6. danny's stereo
7. mexican hand mirror
[seven facts about you]
1. i am wearing carrie's jacket
2. it has ice cream on it
3. i am teaching myself guitar....again
4. i am eagerly awaiting opening of indian restaurant
5. i wish i was in ottawa for the weekend
6. i am at school
7. i've started watching dawson's creek again |
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[Jun. 13th, 2005|10:17 am] |
I MISS LESLEY ALREADY!!!
booo.
but the weekend couldn't have been better. taking off on out merry way first thing saturday morning, carrie and i spent five hours listening to the eagles and telling bad jokes and only got lost once - we ended up at this itty bitty gas station in colchester and had to ask these two funny old men for directions. they probably thought we were demented and shouldn't be travelling without supervision.
but anyway, we DID make it to windsor and more importantly, to lesley and spent the better part of the rest of the day lounging on the 'beach' (it was a mucky river, but it was water, it had sand and we hunted for seashells), where we brought out the water guns and watched the gipsum...gypsum....um...whatever, boats and got hit on by a bunch of 13-year-olds while we were sunning ourselves. we stuffed ourselves silly with pizza on the patio and hit up the only club in town. i haven't been dancing in AGES, and we were planning on sitting in the park and drinking champagne and stargazing afterwards, but it was too cloudy, so we just drank and talked (and talked and talked) until the sun came up. i love how lesley spills secrets but always prefaces them by, "i shouldn't be telling you this, but oh, well!". also that she was like, "you guys really DO like me!" and how she thinks it would be bugging us to call us once in a while! ridiculous.
sunday was cloudy and quite hungover, so we played miniputt and went second hand shopping, managing to make a total scene of ourselves at frenchie's. mmm, there was lots of sun and ice cream and basketball and playing in mud, and carrie and i were so loathe to leave that we departed much too late (carrie even let me drive all the way from windsor to the highway, which probably slowed us down something significant) and in the rain and the fog and the middle of the night, we'd never been so close to passing out from sheer exhaustion.
and so the crummy week begins. but then we go back next weekend, huzzah! |
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[Jun. 10th, 2005|04:57 pm] |
everytime i visit gagetown, i find more reasons to make me want to go back as quickly as possible. emily's parents are so lovely, and there was a new feline addition to the house hold - roxy is so tiny, i was afraid i would step on her and squish her. we went an expedition into the swamp and were temporarily driven from our canoe by a mouse infestation. actually, there was only one. but you try sharing a canoe with a big fat mouse and see how you like it! driving around in the pickup truck and sitting outside a little country gas-station that reminded me intensely of the thirteenth child, and while the sun was going down and it was getting buggy, and we were sitting on the curb, emily told me i looked so pretty right then that she would marry me.
katie left this morning, but my glumness is tempered by going to see lesley tomorrow....!!!! i have my hands so full with work and stargazing and long walks and disk and summer reading -gah, do you ever find that you forget what summer is really like when it's not summer? you really forget just the way the sun feels or the lilac smells or the air tastes, or how truly a blessing patios are?
i am freckly and dirty and sparkly. my only wish is that i could spend summer here AND in ottawa at the same time!!!! oh, wait, no, my other wish is for a cupcake. |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2005|11:36 am] |
hooray for more stargazing. on a random dock. out on the river. and rocks. to throw off of the dock.
and patios and popsicles and walking around king street knowing people.
if i was working at a call centre, i'd be making about two and a half times what i'm making now. i don't have any expenses, so anything over my grocery/beer expenditures is just more money for me to fritter away. is this reasonable, or does it just sound like an excuse to only work 20 hours a week? |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|12:57 pm] |
i feel so adrift without my enormous purse. no sunglasses, no wallet, no cards, no agenda (it's terrible to reach the age when you need an agenda even in the summer) and NO ENORMOUS PURSE. i hardly know what to do with myself. i think i'll do nothing. i certainly won't be going to work. i'm sure they'll figure it out for themselves. but i certainly am going to windsor next weekend. so hooray for seeing lesley.
when i see what all my friends who didn't go to university are doing, sometimes i feel like i'm the one who messed up. i feel like a chump. but i guess i could never get past the idea that if i didn't go to school NOW, i never would. i guess in the end it was probably the right choice for me - if it wasn't, it's too late now. with only a year and a half left here, i really feel like i need to finish. but carrie was talking about how much she missed home last night as we dawdled down restigouche/ stumbled through the woods/ stargazed, and i was feeling all displaced. i love it here, but i know within the next couple years, it'll be time to find my way back to ontario, at least for a while. what can i say, i guess it's a case of you can take the girl out of ontario....
i had a dream about hanging out with hannah and rebecca last night. it was awesome. but then i woke up, and it was sad. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2005|04:00 pm] |
hooray, summer is finally here!! i only worked four hours yesterday, so i spent a languid afternoon sunbathing by the river and playing many hours of ultimate. i am well on my way to becoming brown as a berry.
what kind of berry is brown, anyway?
carrie and i toasted all the alcohol we had in the house and then hit the rouge's patio AND the sketchiest bar ever - it was like, 3:00 am, and they were still serving us beer, plus they let us smoke indoors. i think it's our new favourite. aside from the clubhouse.
this weather is making me positively boyant (sp?). now that jobs have been acquired by all, we can start planning camping trips/operation save lesley/ me getting out of fredericton for the first time since christmas or so. this sun is merciless, but i'm just so glad to finally see it. also, my manager let me off early today (hooray!) because i was so exhausted (boo...) - but my rating has also changed, which means twice the hours (hooray!) - but now i have to hobble my way home on very sore legs (boo...). |
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[May. 30th, 2005|02:29 pm] |
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i can't help but notice that summer seems to have arrived everywhere i am not. and i thought that whole being a little rain-cloud was just a metaphor. but really, it needs to stop pouring all day and every day and all the time so carrie and i can spend more time in the clubhouse. members only. |
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[May. 26th, 2005|01:53 pm] |
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| [ | do you hear |
| | atlantic city - bruce springsteen | ] |
i miss the city. any city. does any one want to go to philly for the weekend? |
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[May. 24th, 2005|01:44 pm] |
i am starting to think that summer in fredericton is mere myth. the only good thing about the cruddy weather is that i've been cooking and writing alot and getting out for my runs - it's so much easier to run in the rain, and i've started ending my run with the train bridge - the wiew is my reward for the first cruddy thirty minutes.
i am going to miss katie. seriously, i already feel like my days will have a little gap in them once she leaves. there will be much less oprah and talk of aerosol food products. last night, three of us were bustling around the kitchen making dinner at the same time and the house felt so full and warm and homey.
i've been weirdly calm lately. i think time away from some peoples is doing me good. time away from others is making me very blue, though. carlie and i were discussing people leaving and she asked me if i missed the boys and until that point, i hadn't really. but then i was like...hey, i do. well, i miss tyler anyway. is that bad? i mean, that i don't miss them both? i'm a bad friend! |
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[May. 20th, 2005|12:19 pm] |
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i'm getting so good at hanging out by myslef. it sounds lonely, but i think it's an important skill that i need to relearn, and with carrie out of town for a few days, it seems like a perfect opportunity. emily graced me with her presence during her lunch break yesterday and then we got coffee and i walked her back to the legislature. sometimes you start to forget how wonderful some people are when you don't see them for a while. it's like when i hang out with carrie, i don't see much of a lot of other people. don't get me wrong, i adore carrie, but it's like i'm having time to step back and be like, right, i have other friends too, and i don't have to be around somebody all the time. anyway, a quiet couple days to do errands and maybe gagetown on the weekend.
i stepped into the health food store the other day and was sent in to a (pleasant) spiral of nostalgia. i adore health food stores in and of themselves, but they also form such an integral part of my childhood and the way i was raised and those fond food-related memories that inevitably become memories of kitchens and mothers and rainy afternoons with cbc on the radio and walking home through the glebe or across the farm to a warm kitchen with coffee on and something in the oven and mom sitting at the dining room table doing needlepoint.
i am becoming increasingly frustrated with the level of political unawareness of those about me. this isn't some high standard i've set because i'm a polisci major, or anything - i mean, is it unreasonable to expect people to know that Canada does indeed have a Senate (a puzzled look on ian when carrie mentioned 'senator' romeo dallaire) or WHO THE PRIME MINISTER IS??? ("you mean bernard lord?"....ARGH). it's not like it think everyone needs to have some complex understanding of the intricacies of canadian politics, but, really, i was trying to explain last night's budget vote to kiersten and i basically had to explain the entire political system to her first - she thought the vote was taking place down the street at the legislature. am i being unreasonable? i'd like to know. |
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[May. 18th, 2005|03:15 pm] |
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alkdjfhlkadf, where does my week go? how can time go by so quickly when i don't do anything?
but it was a busy weekend, ian had friends up from hali and carrie and i hung out with them alot - they were highly entertaining. we don't remember the walk home on friday night, only that it some how ended, once again, in the car smoking. my little roomate kiersten, who must be about half my size, has become my answer to not having boys to hold off the bar grossies for the summer. she's tough as nails, and was just like, "uh-unh, she does not like that, so fuck off". saturday was slightly tamer - "if i was the one who mashed banana into the carpet, would i be being showered with crackers like i was a god?". i helped carrie house sit on sunday, and by that i mean we sat in the kitchen and drank tea and read newspapers and played cards all day as it poured rain and was mis out of doors.
i would like to know why even perfectly nice boys who usually comport themselves like gentlemen in every respect (or most respects anyways) behave like boors when they get a few beers in them and think they can grab whoever and whatever they want. and you may expect it in a bar, but, buddy, not in my house, uh-unh.
poverty breeds new forms of entertainment...or maybe old ones. we sat on the railbridge in oromocto yesterday and counted the cars going by on the lincoln road and then we raced sticks under the bridge, after very nearly tumbling UNDER the bridge in pursuit of bigger and better rocks for bigger and better splashes. i demanded that carrie fetch me flowers from a tree hanging over the river and she ended up getting stuck in a pine tree with the only way out being face first into the river. i saved her life. man, what's with people always needing saving? it seems a bad state of affairs when i'm the one being relied on to do the life saving.
i have not seen emily breen in some time. also, i want to go home for awhile, i'm just so tired. someone help me find a second job so i will be allowed to leave the city. |
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[May. 10th, 2005|04:27 pm] |
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i'm gonna miss my roomies. on saturday, following a hellish trip to the mall in flipflops and 5 degree rain - both ways - and an adventure in baking - the adventure was to not eat all the cookie dough before it could be cooked - I sat around with two of my roomies and one of their boyfriends and got stoned watching the basketball game. sunday, katie and i spent all afternoon in our pjs, watching simpsons dvds. it was a satisfactory mothers' day.
carrie and i went to see romeo dallaire yesterday, and by that i mean we went to STU's graduation to see him speak ("sure, our friend 'mumblemumble' is graduating"). hannah rented the grad house for a little post-commencement bash, and i can categorically say that my decision to go did not go unrewarded. emily got a terrible case of the hiccups and went home early, but carrie and i manned (womanned?) the bbq and played darts and made new friends and consumed large amounts of cheap beer until we realized that it was just down to us and the bar-tender. at this point, we sat in the driveway until driving was once again deemed safe before driving around until five in the morning, smoking and outing dirty laundry. we tried to watch the sun come up, but it never did. and we fell asleep in the park anyway.
today we mostly just walked around oromocto west, picking dandylions (sp?) and watching a drone just barely miss hitting the house. i think i day so sublime as this calls for a visit to lincoln involving fire v.2.0. |
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[May. 6th, 2005|07:20 pm] |
it does seem that i spend a large portion of my life waiting for carrie ann bray.
plans always fall through, but sometimes you fall onto something better. like driving to burton and learning how to drive. or roomate quality time. thursday nights at dolan's should become an institution. sitting on the bathroom floor trash-talking until five in the morning optional, but welcome. |
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